[[A gregarious individual holding a fan is talking to her friend, Rachel.]]
Friend: It's SO great to see you! I've been loving your Facebook statuses. Hilarious!
Friend: I'm glad Jimmy introduced us. You're a treat to hang out with!
Rachel: Uh
Rachel: Y-yeah
Rachel: It's fun! It IS fun, isn't it.
[[The friend seems concerned.]]
Friend: Rach! Is everything okay? Did I say something wrong?
Rachel: NO! No, not at all. It's just...
Rachel: I DO like hanging out with you. You're funny, and nice, and we get along. But you're EARNEST.
Rachel: I don't know what to DO with earnestness! When you complimented me, I had to override my natural reaction to treat it as SARCASM!
Rachel: I'm... afraid to LIKE things, I guess? To seem like I'm not cooler than whatever's going on?
Rachel: But YOU'VE got your DANCING and your COOKING CLASSES and your CHOIR and you just seem like you... ENJOY it all.
Rachel: You're not ABOVE it. You're not afraid of looking or feeling silly. I TELL myself I don't mind looking silly, but what I REALLY mean is that I put on a silly AFFECT, to be cool.
Rachel: Even NOW I feel embarrassed to be honest. Not because I think you'll JUDGE me, but because I feel like it DIMINISHES me somehow.
Friend: I'm sorry. I will immediately cancel all my hobbies and begin acting coldly towards you.
Rachel: THAT I hope WAS sarcasm but now I'm not even SURE!
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